They all jz happen suddenly,,
out of e blue,,
unexpectedly.. =(
*shocked*
Recently went back 2 kampong, bt stayed in a hotel as all of our couzins were there too, so there wasnt much space 4 evrione 2 sleep..
=X
Got 2 noe more abt my couz's,, all e adek sedare cuuuttee!!. haha!
evrityme walk past them, i cubit their cheeks. xD
Was havin fever since 1st dae.
2nd dae,, hari raye aidiladha,, evrione happy =)
3rd dae,, shock.
Mak lang called at ard 6am.. Atok's in hospital. O.O
I tot dat it was as usual,, so i wasnt so worried...
Aft breakfast, went straight 2 hosp.
Pak cik, mak lang n nenek was there..
All seemed 2 b fine.
Atok was sittin on e bed, jz tokin as usual.. =)
Went back 2 kampong 2 send nenek hme,,
(gt 2 noe dat nenek didnt sleep since e nite b4)
At 10pm-1am,, Atok was findin it difficult 2 breathe.
At 1am, pak cik brought Atok 2 24hr clinic,,
he gt some painkillers.
Went back 2 kampong at ard 3am?.
Atok still feelin pain,,
Nenek told us wat atok said 2 her, "Abng mcm nk mati..Tkle bernafas.."
decided 2 go hosp. at 4am.
Till we sent nenek n mak lang back home.
Aft asar, visiting hours open at 4pm, e whole family went 2 hosp.
Atok was e same,, bt seemd 2 b more pale. =(
Stayed there till ard 7pm?
Then while e doctor was talkin 2 my parents, mak lang(she's a nurse ini SGH), n summore uh.. (outside e ward)
,,dun remember lei,,
mak ngah tngah berzikir...
den.
atok was lookin at her.
den.
Suddenly atok said, "ALLAH...."
& fainted.
The doctor rushed in n quickly performed CPR..
nenek & all started 2 cry. =(
My heart jz sank..
*Prayed*
Aft abt 30mins,
All seemed 2 b lost, i was controllin my tears.
e doctor asked 4 atok's son's n daughters outside 2 talk..
i couldnt take it anymore dat tyme......
den e doctor said..
"Currently he has no blood pressure. Bt we r trying our best... we would b trying 2 recover him 4 abt an hour."
A Glimpse of Hope.
Aft abt an hour,,
doctor's still tryin..
Pak ngah, Abah, Pak cik, Atif n I decided 2 solat maghrib 1st..
while e rest waited beside atok's ward.
*Prayed*
Tears couldnt b held much longer.
Came back 2 ward...
I felt as though my heart had jz been ripped off my body..
all e equipments 4 CPR were kept..
I couldnt think.
Quickend my steps 2wards atok..
tears startd rolling down...
den,, doctor was trying 2 wake up atok.
"Pak cik, Pakcik!"
His back =)
bt still unconscious.
He had 2 chnge ward agn, 4 e 5th tyme,
bt nw 2 e ICU.
Stayed there till ard 10 plus or so...
den went back 2 hotel 2 sleep.
In e morning, had breakfast..
my father was planning 2 go home 2dae..
as atok's condition was quite stable again,,
bt asked me to go back 2 malacca agn 2 take care of atok.
1st we went back 2 kampong so dat we could bring mak lang 2 e hosp.
nenek n pak cik was oredi there.
my father asked if i wanted 2 follow,
i thought 4 a moment,
all my abg sedare still asleep -_-"
so there was onli my makcik who cud take care of all e adek sedare whom were running abt.
-_-""
i decided 2 stay.
even though i wanted 2 go.....
like for instace, abt my arwah nenek,
i wanted 2 see her 4 e last tyme b4 she passed away..
bt i was taking care of e younger ones agn dat tyme,
it was 3 years back. =(
Unexpectedly,
it happend agn,
same scenario.
While i was takin care of them,
my mum called n said,
Abah's otw 2 bring whoever is stil in e kampong..
Atok sedang saket terok skrg.
Skrg dlm ICU.
Same scenario agn.
I was realli worried dat e worst cud happen..
such as it did wen my arwah nenek passed away.
I was pacing back n forth while waitin 4 my father 2 arrive.
Atif, my younger couzin, said "Mcm risau je kau.."
i jz smiled abit. n nodded.
It was 1.15pm..
Dad jz arrived.
We went off immediately.
Unfortunately... There was a BLOODIE jam jz abt a few kilometres away frm e hosp.
we were stuck in it 4 abt 15 mins..
den.
mak ngah called Atif.
"Atok dh meninggal........."
Inalillah hiwainahira'ji'un..
Sobs cud b heard in e car..
Aft a while,
we reached e hosp. Rushed 2 ICU..
Nenek saw us.. and cried.."Atok dh tkde...."
Tears rolled down uncontrollably..
I kept quiet 4 sum tyme.
Why did it happend agn?!?!
I wasnt able 2 see atok 4 e last tyme.
='(
Then,, went back 2 kampong 2 clean e place..
& so on & so forth.
Til e burial.
Tis saturdae kenduri arwah. =)
*I've changed agn*
..T0m 0ver n 0ut..
